Thursday, October 30, 2008

Cold ending.

They were resurfacing the road into Mold today. I had to stop and for a few moments admired the way white birds wheeled around a snow-covered field and as they dropped below the background of the dark sky immediately became grey. For some reason they reminded me of scavengers, as if there was some half-eaten carcass that had attracted their attention, and it seemed to me that this might be how the world ends - with scavengers - the end of the food chain.

What if it ended now, I wondered. It is something that used to occur to me a lot when I was younger. Who I would try to run to or phone in those last few minutes - my parents, my brothers, my husband, my sons, my friends...? Then I thought of how it would be to have no one... And then the sun caught the hills. They were still covered in a patchwork of snow, the dark hedges like seams of crude sewing, and the sun glanced off the crest and made it glow white and I felt that if the world were to end this would be my perfect final vision.

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9 Comments:

Blogger stu said...

Words the world might end with:

'I wonder what happens if I pull this?'

'The government wishes to assure everyone that everything is absolutely fine'

'You see. I told you so.'

Thu Oct 30, 10:38:00 pm  
Blogger Clare Dudman said...

Heh. My vote goes for the second one.

Thu Oct 30, 10:42:00 pm  
Blogger Susangalique said...

I think I would prefer to just die and not know it.

My last comment would be to tell you that one of my best friends baby is going as a snail for Halloween! Isnt that just brilliant.

Thu Oct 30, 10:59:00 pm  
Blogger Clare Dudman said...

Yes, S - same here.

Excellent about the snail! Are you going to put a photo on your blog?

Thu Oct 30, 11:03:00 pm  
Blogger claires inner world said...

Neil Rollinson wrote that great poem, 'A List of Requirements for the End of the World'. I went to a poetry workshop with Jo Shapcott recently where we wrote our own versions of this poem.

Seems there's a lot of apocalyptic feeling in the air!

Fri Oct 31, 12:45:00 pm  
Blogger Clare Dudman said...

Not heard of that poet, Claire! Sounds like a good idea for a list, though.

Sun Nov 02, 03:16:00 pm  
Blogger claires inner world said...

I hadn't heard of him either until Jo gave us a copy of his poem at the workshop. His webpage is http://www.neilrollinson.com/ if you want to take a look....

Claire

Mon Nov 03, 10:26:00 am  
Blogger Clare Dudman said...

Thanks Claire - lots of poetry here - but not much about the man, is there? I guess that's how it should be - but it's quite mysterious.

Mon Nov 03, 10:32:00 am  
Blogger jem said...

Great piece - I love it when you give us these beautifully written little glimpses into your more abstract thoughts.

End of the world musings are always an interesting place to spend a little time.

Mon Nov 03, 12:22:00 pm  

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